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I am working on an important post for the thinking man, but first I want to know what morality means to you.  What is the definition you use.  I want Christian and secular perspectives on this, as well as male and female input.

 

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I found this article through Empathologism’s site and found it to be quite interesting in that it is consistent to what I have pointed out in some of my recent essays.  Before we get into the overall theme, I want to point how this article and this site in general seems to encourage beta behaviors as it also caters to a primarily female audience under the auspice of helping men in their marriages.  It is important to point out directly that if a man does indeed follow the advice given, it is likely it would negatively affect the happiness of both partners and probably lead to the premature ending of the relationship.

As Anonymous commented on Empath’s article:

The article is deeply flawed as relationship advice because the problem is stated in such broad and fuzzy terms as to be almost without meaning. Empath hit it : what problem is to be solved, here? By lumping in all sorts of visual behavior into one, catch-all category “looking at other women” the author conflates many different male actions with “bad”.

Whatever the intent of the author (and I am not so kind as Empath) the effect is to give a blank cheque to women’s demands. No matter how strictly a man may control his eye muscles, from time to time in the Western world he will see a pretty woman, and by declaring the simple act of “looking” to be a crime or a sin, men are set up in the “Nothing you can ever do will be good enough for me” pedestalization trap.

There is a not very subtle dominance issue in the original article – men are to be accountable to women, period. Oh, and apparently to God as well, but women first. So the standard Churchian hierarchy is reinforced: God > women > men > children.

Although as always, there is more than a whiff of: women > God > men > children, even though it would be stoutly denied by the original author and the various female commenters. But frankly, “God says you have to do what I say!” does bleed over from the first hierarchy into the second without much effort. […]

[‘’’] Even if the author is well meaning, he’s just fanning fears. I’m sure that there are women who will find the article and who were sorta content with their husband / LTR, but who after reading it will find themselves compulsively watching his eyes in order to see what he’s looking at, then taking notes for future reference. So as with so many other “advice” articles, the author is creating trouble in other people’s lives by playing on the fears of women.

In the end, it’s just another example of how the notion that women must control men, and men must submit to women, has become shot through all aspects of at least US society.

(emphasis mine)

Most of the aforementioned article represents two separate but related issues that need clarifying.  The first is that women will often act hypocritically.  In this article and other on the site, they are flavored with men bad>women good either overtly or implicitly.  However when men understand women’s behaviors and motivations it will help us navigate through the various minefields and shit tests that will inevitably come our way.   This is part of the feminine primary social conditioning that the ‘sphere has illuminated over the last decade or so.

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Men should never notice this.

 

It is worth noting that the comment section represents the various shit tests these women gave their partners and the results of their partners failing and them.  At first, I thought that the women who get upset at their men looking at other women were possibly mate guarding behaviors, but mate guarding would entail that woman actively try to please her husband all of the time and thus keep him interested and invested in their marriage.  However, that attitude was not shown in any of the comments, nor was it presented in the article.  In fact Smith put the entire onus on the man to somehow suppress his natural urge to look at beautiful women.  When considering preselection and women’s attraction triggers, a man who looks at another woman and especially other women showing interests in him normally trigger behaviors in the woman that would reinforce her attraction to her husband.  This would manifest as behaviors such as the woman being more sexually available to the man and a likely increase in a woman’s general submissiveness to her husband.  This is the proper context of mate guarding behaviors and as such should have been mentioned by Smith.  Instead he promoted the general fem-centric view that woman should control men via a man’s sexuality by essentially encouraging the tactic of the women throwing a temper tantrum until a she gets her way.

A brief reading of the comments, which were mostly a repeating of the same mantra, show us that women have no understanding of men and our sexual impulses, nor does it seem that most women are in fact really interested in learning how to improve their relationships.  One such natural and normal impulse is when a man glances and even starts at a beautiful woman.  The feminine imperative tries to shame men and tell them that we are wrong and we should “bow our heads” and divert our eyes” in a perverted display of submission and supplication to the feminine goddess.  As I stated in my comment to his article:

Women have no right to castrate men’s natural urges to appreciate other women.  As one respected writer (Empath) indicated “women generally feel a strong inclination towards letting their morals be guided by their emotions”.  That is probably the underlying cause of a majority of frivolous divorces, only to be spurned on by shit article like this that give women the moral cover they desperately seek.  These same women would set aside their high morals when it comes time to divorce their husbands, proving the above statement.  It’s all about you honey, aint it?

I suspect that the majority of the women who take issue with this are at, or have already hit the wall.  All the comments showed was that overwhelmingly these women are very insecure and not content in their relationships.  I suspect that their men simply look at women who are much hotter than themselves.  I wonder if these women honestly assessed themselves and made themselves more attractive to their men by growing out their hair, losing weight, and being sexually more available and exciting how much less this would be a problem in their relationships.  Of course that would mean they would have to stop being delusional and maybe appreciate their husbands more, but I digress.  The women who got their panties all twisted up seem to constantly need the affirmations and reassurances of their beta husbands that they are the most beautiful women in the world to them, blah, blah, blah.  I pointed out in my comment that no, that with a lot of men their wives are in fact NOT the most beautiful women in his eyes.   It is not hard to notice that with the typical married woman, they gain weight, cut their hair short and it seems deliberately make themselves unattractive.  Even in cases where a man’s wife is still a hottie, men should use caution in telling her this all of the time.  In many cases (with the typical woman) this just adds to her already excessively large ego.  Nothing good comes out of pussy worship.  I will add that in a healthy relationship a man shows his wife his attraction for her on a daily basis through his actions, and a woman with a healthy attitude accepts this as his affirmation of love and attraction.  What we commonly see is that too many women have unhealthy attitudes and expectations.

Fat_chicks_1   Many mens wives.

If I can point at one important thing I learned is that women are responsible for their own feeling, good or bad.  It’s not something men are responsible for in this age of female fickleness and general flakey behavior. Smith adds to this by encouraging the delusions of these women.  He has several articles about how husbands are not attracted to and do not want to have sex with their wives.  The comment sections were hamsterbation in the first degree.  Reading many of the comments on some of his articles it is apparent that many of these women are seeking validation for their behaviors which simply turn their partners off.

My comment was met with the typical white knight shaming language from the author and of course he preemptively dismissed the entire context and premise of what I said;

Michael, You’re correct that insecurities can drive some of the conflict between partners on this subject. However, so can how many men look at other women in such a disrespectful way. Many of your points can apply to both men and women. I wish you had chosen to present them in a more balanced manner, because unfortunately your one-sided, angry approach is going to cause your points to get dismissed. –Kurt

(emphasis mine)

There are two quiz’s on his site, one for men to see how shitty of a husband he is, and another is for wives so they can validate their feelings that their husbands are in fact shitty.  Below is the pitch.

Guys

  • Are you a good husband? Learn more about yourself, take the quiz and see how you rate
  • Learn what women really want from their husbands
  • Discover ways to be a better husband

Ladies

  • Want to know what kind of husband you have? Take the quiz and see how your husband rates
  • Learn how to get the husband you’ve always dreamed of

The questions were typical and I received the grade I expected.

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How can you not look?

I wrote most of this as a companion to The Women in Church essay, but a comment on J4M prompted me to include his comment in this essay and thus my response to it as an example of the typical man you would meet in church.

Church Man writes:

I stopped reading alt-right and christian game (an oxymoron) sites last year. The hypocrisy and lunacy was too much to digest. I call myself a church man on purpose, since that crowd is so anti-churcianity as they call it. Supposedly they are the “real Christians” and the rest of us who go to church and actually enjoy it are fakers and dupes or chumps.

I took a gander at Grey’s blog and its the same ol’ crap. A fornicator deigns to lecture men about “church sluts”. And those men lap it up like the dogs they are.

The only people with a right to critique the church are those who are IN IT and trying to make a difference. Not those who have left it to lead wanton lives and yet deign to lecture those of us who have stayed and are living straight.

I am glad Church Man stopped by.  However it seems he read the title of ONE post, got his panties in a knot and stormed off to randomly criticize me on a article that was talking about something else entirely instead of leaving his remarks at the end of my essay.  I think he should have read more of my essays.  He did this in an effort to discredit me personally instead of addressing the issues in the j4G article or my particular comments. This is the classic behavior of the white knights and mangina’s I speak about below.  Many of these men are probably married to the older church women I wrote about in my previous essay on the Types of Women in Church.  When you point out how these mens’s behavior is perpetuating some of these problems they take it as a personal attack and act out emotionally, just like women really.  He ambiguously uses shaming language against me and the entire sphere because he is somehow more moral than any of us, or he thinks of himself as so.  Maybe this is because he chooses to attend church were some of do not.  I personally think that Dalrock and Rollo are quite moral and probably more moral than most of the men who actually go to church including my criticizer.  I will also speculate their marriages are happier and more fulfilling for both spouses than most church men.  I will admit I am a bit more amoral than what I used to be in regards to having sex out of wedlock.  I am also pragmatic, but I digress.

He goes on to state that no one is allowed to criticize the church if they no longer attend.  This smacks of someone who is so entrenched into the feminine-primary mindset that they cannot see past their own misandry.  He must go to the non-typical church were the virgin women are marrying the good virgin and non virgins men regardless of their beta mindsets and none of the church girls have 463 point lists of qualities their perfect man must possess.  His church also takes divorce and female promiscuity so seriously that women are excommunicated for frivolously divorcing their husbands.  The sluts in his church (yes they are there) have forsworn their promiscuous ways and thus many have relegated themselves to a life of celibacy and singleness because they know that they are far to damaged to be a good wife who is able to bond to the beta men who she would meet in church.  These men like Church Man, when (not if) they find themselves victims of hypergamy and the feminine imperative will either resign themselves to a lifetime of loneliness and bitterness or they will be the first ones lurking on Roosh or Heartiste in order to learn the skills and mindset necessary on order to meet and keep his new love interests.

Continuing the original essay, we see from the example above that these men do exist in large numbers and the comments just lends credibility to what follows.   As for the older or married men in church, I have NEVER met a red pill alpha, or any alpha for that matter.  Even the combat vets, who I consider brothers, are still white knights mangina’s when it comes to women and the feminine imperativeEverything they say about marriage and relationships is usually dead wrong.  Many of these men are led by their wives and their children, although they will be the first to tell you how much of a leader they are in their families.  If you criticize or call out the bad advice they commonly give about intergender relations you are thoroughly chastised and shamed.  They will never debate or talk about these issues in an adult and intellectual manner.  Normally they tell you that their interpretations are the only ones that matter, call you immoral and rush off in a huff.  I really cannot totally respect a man for behaving like that.  These same men continuously tell the unmarried and younger men they must marry.  All you have to do is attend any modern church and you will hear the cry from the pulpit and the other male attendees for younger or unmarried men to Man Up (and marry those sluts) and woe unto the man who has sex with one of the precious single princesses who attend church.

Other men you will meet are the young men who were brought up in church and are hoping to find that “one special snowflake” to marry.  They saved themselves, in most cases from lack of opportunity mind you, and are hoping to find the vestal virgin of their dreams.  The problem though is that these men dry up the vajayjay’s of the pretty little church girls who with their lists, only get hot and tingly for the alpha bad boys they would only meet outside of church.  Some do get lucky and their personalities and potential win out, AFBB.   For these men they might end up with a good woman with a healthy (but previously restrained) sex drive that can now be released in all of its naughty fury.  Woe to the man who ends up marrying the 30 year old virgin spinster who had very few choices to begin with or the fake Christian woman who has already worked up a notch count in the double digits.  I hope most of these men at least have enough sense to ask his love interests some very basic questions. It’s unfortunate that for many of these young men who ascribe to contemporary Christian dating advice (bullshit really) the only women who will actually settle for them are themselves settling.  They wouldn’t have to settle so much if they learned game and upped their alpha quotient some.  But these men can rest assured that although she probably wasn’t your first choice, neither were you her first choice.

It’s important to remember that most Christian women have thoroughly adopted the Fireproof world view of how marriage should work and of course if you are not a weeping slub like the (supposed) hero of Courageous, well your just less of a man.  Of course the men who act like this are the ones who end up being cuckolded and possibly forced to raise another man’s child.  Most Christian women also have no problem blowing up their marriages for whatever frivolous reasons, such as her husband looking at porn or he no longer makes her haaapy.  When Christian leaders exalt praise on single motherhood, then you know for sure the church has big big problems.  The older men in church encourage the women to act like this because they refuse to hold women accountable to that higher standard.  They also refuse to teach the unpopular masculine messages in the Bible.  Lastly they deify their wives which of course contradict every teaching of the bible and ends up leading the man to idolatry.  When there is a problem in a couple’s marriage, the following excerpt gives a perfect example of the men=bad, women=good meme.

“When my wife left me for frivolous reasons I approached the head pastor of her church in order to get some help reigning in her rebellion.  All he told me was that it is a woman’s right to divorce and that I am abusive because I told her (my wife) we were going to go to a different church because I did not like the teachings of the one she was attending, which was the church this guy led.  He actually had the gall to tell me that I should be listening to her and coming to his church.  Suffice it to say that we never did reconcile our marriage and are now divorced”.

Too many Christian men and believe that marrying Christian woman will shield them from the reality of divorce.  Unfortunately that is simply not true.  Christian men would be much better of marrying a secular non believer.  If anything the sex will probably be better.  By marrying a secular woman  you can feel confident that at least she will not be having the trad-con version of feminism pumped into her brain twice a week.  It is a sad state of affairs when a non believing woman is preferred to a professing Christian none.

I blame the men in church for not biblically leading their women.  I feel sorry for the young men who grew up in church and have never been exposed to proper thinking about what works with women.

To me there is a profound difference in meaningless sex, or sex just for the act of ejaculation and passionate sex with a woman who I really love, care about, and trust.

My married sex life lacked the passionate sex I so craved all of the time.  I can count on my appendages the times that the sex was actually very good during my marriage.  It was not like my wife was not hot, she was.  She even tried to do things from time to time.  However we just never had that chemistry, or if we did, something else was screwed up between us.  I do blame a lot of our marriage problems of her feminist beliefs and her neo-Christianity.  I still think that had she not joined a gyno-centric church we would have made it and had had a good marriage.  Also she was very repressed about her own sexuality in general.  I once believed, albeit incorrectly, that this was a problem I needed to correct.

After many years of lame duty sex I thought I sucked at being a lover.  The lame sex in my marriage affected me deeply.  I began to doubt myself.  I felt inadequate.  I was dying inside, slowly over many years. After she left I doubted myself even more.  I felt worse.

I even spoke to a couple of my female clients about it while I was still married and they offered to “grade” me.  I declined their offers, which I regret doing so now.  After she left I noticed that with the variety of women I started banging that I was in fact a very good lover.  They not only told me so, they showed me with their sexual responses and their bodies.  I enjoyed the passion of the entire act from seduction and foreplay to post coitus cuddling.  My lovers enjoyed how I loved the entire act.  One particular woman I met after my wife left me brought out all of those many years of my sexual repression and my wife’s denial of my own sexual pleasure.  She allowed me to explore my sexuality in a safe environment and with her.  The one thing her and I had was a connection.  I always looked forward to our lovemaking.  For days after we made love I felt complete, I felt like a man.  These feelings compelled me to be a better man overall.  These feelings she aroused in me also compelled me to want to please her in every way.  I wanted to spend time with her when I could.  It was with her I no longer doubted my sexual abilities.  It was after her that all of my lovers showed me that I was ranked among their very best.  For that I will always be grateful to her.  Unfortunately, the relationship had to end for other reasons, but our time together will be counted as a fond memory of mine.

After that woman and some others I have had, I no longer desire meaningless sex with just any woman.  It is more than knowing I am the prize and my natural aloofness.  It is that in a loving relationship where we both love and trust each other a connection happens that leaves me feeling full.  It is that connection that I am seeking.  I know there will be meaningless sex along the way, but I will always seek out the “connection” that makes me a better man.

I know couples that have that connection.  I have spoken to both men and women about their sex lives.  The best relationships are those where they both can feel open and honest with each other to not only express their fantasies but explore them with each other.  I think this woman gets it from the female point of view.  Another thing I noticed is that when a woman embraces her own and her man’s sexuality he will normally stop desiring other women and desire to commit to only her.  I think that women who have a problem with their men looking at porn should take heed to this.  If he can equate that full feeling and connection that (he craves with you) to having sex with you, then I don’t see porn being a problem in your relationship.

A little Christmas Cheer for the STBX.

As for the girls, like you, I also don’t think they need their father.  You mentioned some nonsense to me before about how daughters needing their daddy’s but I am sure you were just trying to manipulate me into doing something for you at the time and you could not have really meant what you said.  Your present actions speak louder than some wayward conversation we may have had in the distant past anyways.  You and I both know that the courts think the same way and that fathers are an unnecessary component to any child upbringing.  Also the courts are never concerned with the wellbeing of men or how they will be able to survive nor should they be.

Maybe you have another man to replace me that you think would be better for them, or maybe he romances you better than I ever did.  Women in their 30’s are easily finding good husbands to marry them, and you are still relatively attractive for your age so you should have no problem meeting that perfect man to marry you.  And you won’ t even have to settle for any man you’re not head over heels in love with like you had to do with me.  Either way, as you expressed to me numerous times you want me out of their lives, so I am out, and I am making this choice willingly.  That means I don’t want to know anything about them and of course I don’t want any of the responsibility.  You cannot have your cake and eat it too you know.

So I decided that because you don’t want me in their lives I should just forget about them and just go back to the life I was living before we met, which was actually quite fun and exciting before meeting you.  I figure I can enjoy being a bachelor like I did before, partying with various young women doing what I want without consequence and I won’t have to worry about kids or anything else but myself.  It’s not like I would ever get the full commitment of any woman in my life.  I have even been thinking again about getting a vasectomy which I seriously wanted to do before I even met you.  That way I won’t have to be concerned with any more sudden and unplanned surprises.  Anyway it’s not like you really wanted to have sex all that much, nor will we ever do so again in the future.  As for remarriage, I see no point as it was a mistake the first time marrying any woman, because this is what always happens to us men or at least 90% of us because you women often are the ones who decide you don’t need us anymore for whatever reason.  Plus it’s just not popular to marry anymore.  We are only good for sperm donations and its time men should realize this and quit complaining.  The Rules have changed after all, plus I am sure you feel regret for not being able to have more fun when you were young.  I knew the risks, as did you.

Divorce is a good thing because your happiness is the most important thing you can ever strive for and Tara, you do deserve happiness irregardless of what you might have to do to get it and regardless of what anyone may think or say about what you are doing.  You have your pride after all.  Some people won’t understand all the crap and abuse you had to go through being married to me and how you say I committed adultery by looking at porn.  They may even try to tell you the kids will be messed up from their parents splitting up.  Don’t listen to them.  They do not know what they are talking about.  I know before you left me you had thought a lot about how much better your life would be without having a husband (like me) to think about.  Now that you left you are living the dream and soon you will be able to cash in.  All the power to live your life as you see fit is yours.  You have seen so many other woman succeed at what you’re doing such as your mother and my mother and things are good for both of them so why won’t they be for you too.  Both of them ended up very well I think.  Their children are no worse for going through the experience and most of their hardships were only temporary.

I thought this would be the best present I could give you and the girls.  As soon as you file for divorce and expedite its review, you can take everything I have left and rape me with child support payments I cannot afford, nor will I ever pay.  Then I will have to leave the area or maybe even the country for somewhere that’s more interesting so I can be free from you and the man.  I know if I sell the rest of my stuff I can live comfortably in Thailand for a few years or more.  I see no reason to stick around here seeing as I won’t have any more contact with you or my progeny as per your desires.

This letter is not a joke or a parody, quite the opposite.  This letter is just my acceptance of the present reality of the situation, our current laws, and your general dislike and disregard for me.  I suppose it’s the last stage of my grief and all of that so I am now good to finally move on.  I am happy I have finally gotten to this point.  Again this is not a joke, I feel much better about my being single again.  Aren’t you relived that I finally accept the inevitable and will give you the girls 100% so I can go off and party and do my own thing and leave you alone?  That is what you told me you wanted after all so as a gift I am giving it to you.  Sorry I didn’t have a bow.

BTW, Merry Christmas.

By: MonkeyWerks

I wish my father explained theses things better to me.  In fact I am going to write a list for a future article on what my father should have taught me but didn’t.  This lesson I never received bit me in the ass hard.  Vox wrote this article that illustrated the importance of this lesson.

Women fall into two different categories for most men, who we will fuck and who we will fuck and then marry.  Most men will fuck any woman who is above a HB5 depending on circumstances, which is most women, so having a “will not fuck” list for a man is immaterial.

My beautiful ex wife was an HB8 to me, tall blonde and blue, just the way I like them.   As it turned out, on the surface she had the looks and the attitude for being a good wife for life, but in reality should have been on the bang list only.  She was a hardcore feminist and dressed in ways that were generally not feminine and were also not slutty like many of the woman I was meeting time.  Very rarely did I see her in dresses or any sexy clothes, and even now she refuses to wear a sun dress in the summer, but that may change as she hunts for a new chump husband.  Unfortunately, I took her manner of dress to mean she was not a slut like so many of the attractive young women I was meeting.  Instead she was all the way opposite and had no idea what it meant to be a real feminine woman, nor was she taught any other traditional values or domestic skills.  I must have thought at the time that she would be more faithful, which in a way she might have been because I don’t think she was sexually unfaithful during our marriage, but I will never know for certain.  She was just not faithful in the other ways that also mattered.

The lesson is that looks matter to us men for the initial attraction but it is how a woman acts in general that will mitigate even her very good looks and lower her MMV.  As my wife looked like she was much less of a slut than her sister feminists, she did give it up on the 3rd date as I expected her to do.  In her defense I did pull out all of the stops in my seductions.  She never had a chance.  However, it was then that I should have downgraded her to the bang list.  Her becoming more feminine never materialized and as our marriage dragged on she became less and less like the good and sexy wife of my youth and more of our typical, yet still reasonably attractive radical feminists Christians. It really started to go downhill for her and us when she added a bunch of her Church™ nonsense into the mix of her identity.

Dalrock’s comment was quite interesting:

I look forward to the series. One thing which strikes me about the topic is the flip side to the fact that women can bang higher SMV men than they can marry, and that is that men can (generally) marry higher SMV women than they can bang. The first is pretty universally recognized in the sphere, but I don’t see the latter discussed. One corroborating data point is how often a man’s mistress is of a lower SMV than his wife, especially if the wife is still young. (I have always heard that your mistress should always be less attractive than your wife.  I would hope Dalrock or someone could elaborate more on this piece of advice and its origins). ROM

I figured my wife had a lower SMV than I when we met, and we were about even when we married.  She was hot, educated and had a low partner count, from what I have been told at least.  I was attractive and was making good money and owned a business when we met, but joined the Marines soon after September 11, and my income and options went to shit for 4 years.

How the women look and act in the very beginning will help you determine which list to put her on.  She may go from the Bride list to the Bang list, but rarely do they get promoted to Bride from Bang.  As I like to say, trust your gut.  It is rarely wrong.  If your initial feeling was Bang list then keep her there.  Remember, you can’t turn a whore into a housewife.  You will tank me and Vox for it later.

Read this article about doing a Gut Check and trusting your instincts.

By: MonkeyWerks

This is my first real post on here.  I would have liked to written about something else, but I came across this article that spurned a lot of emotion in me because this was the key excuse my wife used to justify her divorcing me.  The comments are far more illuminating than the article actually.  It shows just how the Christian women think of sex, their husbands and sexuality in general. It will also show you how secular woman think about sex and their husbands.  The Christian men all seem like weak beta’s that are controlled by their wives.  Just going by these comments I would never marry a Christian woman, and if my new wife joined a Church™ I would swiftly have to divorce her because her indoctrination into feminism and all other man hating beliefs would be all but assured.  I told my STBX wife many times that she was way more fun to be around before she found Church™.

This article and many others like it encourage the entitlement and judgmental attitude and are nothing but divorce porn for geared primarily for Christian women.  So as you read the comments to this article you will see several common themes emerge.  These comments show several important things in the way Christian, SoCon and TradCon women think.  These women are just pro-life feminists anyways.

The first is that these anti porn women seem to agree that a man does not need sex.  He may want it, but it is not a need for any man, and men should be severely admonished if they don’t have the self-control to be involuntarily celibate, and they act to relive themselves.  They also agree that a wife is not obligated to have sex or give up sexual intimacy to their husbands at any time.  Sex is only permitted if the wife desires it.  I guess they do not understand what the bible says about sex in marriages and the necessity of having sex often, because at the end of the day, humans are sexual beings and we generally lack the self-control to be celibate long-term.  One man even likened what the bible stated about the necessity of sex in marriage to a man raping his wife.

Another reason these women hate porn is power, power over their husbands sexuality.  It is when woman are allowed to have this power over a man who these same women abuse it by not satisfying the sexual needs of their husbands.  It also sets the marriage in a frame that will minimize the husband’s authority over the family.  Such as anal sex is a sure-fire way to assert dominance over your wife in a way she will also enjoy, if she would just relax, a man must exercise authority over his wife and family and keep this frame at all times.  And yes, most women I have spoken to actually enjoy some butt cocking.

Women want to control men and they do that by attempting to control our sexuality, either by withholding or granting sexual intimacy when sex can be used to the woman’s advantage.  It has nothing to do with a woman actually enjoying sex with their mates or using the act of sexual intimacy as a bonding mechanism in order to strengthen the relationship, it is about the control the woman seeks over the man through his sexual desires.  The stronger a man’s sexual desires are for the woman or the more limited the man’s options, the stronger the woman’s control is over the man, such as wife and her husband.  This is truly the scariest thing about marriage for a man, or it should be.  A domineering wife will destroy their husband in short order, and most men will just let their own destruction happen and wonder why afterwards.  There is a minority of women who realize they have this power, yet they use it constructively, responsibly and to the benefit of the entire family and to the other spouses benefit, which in turns benefits the woman with a more loving, loyal and attentive husband.  Now what wife wouldn’t want a more loving husband?  It’s a shame more woman cannot get out of their own way when it comes to their marriages.  I guess with the messages fed to women on a daily basis, it is no surprise they are so deluded.

Two of the tools theses woman to gain this power is shame and guilt.  Many of these women, who just like my wife, would call men who look at porn perverts, accuse of possibly being child molesters and make many other unfounded and illogical accusations.  They of course can never debate using facts and logic, and they will never take responsibility of the state of their own marriages.  Why should they when they can just blame their husbands for everything, because they are special snowflakes.  This woman even called for white knights to silence the object of her vitriol.  These women use the Church™, twist bible scriptures, anti porn articles and the over abundance of Christian marriage books in an attempt to convince their husbands that even looking at another woman will send us men straight to hell, and if we do the woman are encouraged and justified for breaking up their families and walking away with cash (alimony and child support) and prizes (his children).

At no time will any of these woman look at themselves or their own behaviors.  They will not look to see if they are at least attractive, such as being overweight and wearing sweats all day.  They also refuse to consider that maybe their husbands need more stimulation and more excitement, such as maybe doing more than just missionary and giving more blowjobs when hubby comes home from work.  Nothing motivates me more to love her that when my lover drops to her knees right after I walk through the door.  As with my wife, she thought missionary was all that I would ever need, and that is precisely all that I received the majority of the time, with some “are you done yet” thrown in as extra motivation.  My wife would throw me a duty fuck once a week, but after a while I realized that masturbating to porn was much more satisfying than literally masturbating with a practically dead corpse.  At least I could pretend someone liked me.  Having an unresponsive lover is probably one of the worst things I have ever had to deal with long-term.

This brings up another thing.  When our wives are sexually unresponsive to us it damages our sense of self-worth and our self-esteem as men.  We begin to think, “is it me, am I that bad of a lover?” regardless of our sexual experiences in the past satisfying other woman.  I was so deeply damaged after years of my wife’s total lameness in bed that I spoke to an escort and she agreed to give me an honest grade on my performance.  I even asked her if we could schedule regular meetings.  I never went through with it, but for years I really though I sucked in bed.  It was soon after she left me I started fucking any woman who would sit still for an hour.  It did not take long to see that I was never the problem.  My enthusiasm having sex with these women was positively off the charts.  After more than 18 months and several lovers later, I can say that my skill and stamina has only improved.  Sex is something I again look forward to, as my lover actively seeks out sex with me as much as we can get together.  It was with her I was also able to get rid of most of the shame and guilt I felt for having my natural masculine desires, and enjoy being with a lover that enjoys sex as much as I do.  Ironically, my lover has no problem with porn and I no longer feel a need to look at it or masturbate.  She takes care of all of my sexual needs and then some.  Although I may take care of myself if we can’t get together for a week or more, she saves all of her sexual energy for me and I try to save all of mine for her.

These narrow and damaging views seem to be shared among almost all Christian women.  These women shame their husbands for being men and haven the sexual needs that normal men have.  My wife shamed me for wanting enthusiastic sex with her.  Exciting to me is still pretty vanilla I have realized.  I am thankful my current lover encourages me to express my sexuality to its fullest in a loving and safe manner with her.  I am still amazed and grateful at the same time for her and my other playmates.  From the comments I have read from women against porn in general they are judgmental, harpy and critical women.  I know what their husbands feel and these women attitudes just fuel our desires for more porn as a means to escape from our wives.  It is these women’s attitudes that create the very obsession with porn that they are complaining about and obviously threatened by.

The movie Fireproof has only encouraged this phenomena of Christian women doing everything they can to destroy their marriages and justifying their behavior afterwards.  Christian women seem to actually divorce their husbands even more than women in the secular world (50% secular vs. 60% Churched™ divorce rate), which I find astounding and deeply disturbing.  With such encouragement coming from the Church™ and other Pseudo Christian writers and movies, I am no longer surprised my wife took the same road when destroying our family for such frivolous reasons.  Here is one such Christian counselor that openly encourages women to divorce their husbands if their husbands refuse to follow the wife’s leadership.  This is one reason I tried for years attempting to convince and cajole my STBX wife to attend another Church™ with me.  Obviously my attempts failed miserably, but not for lack of trying.  It’s funny and sad at the same time that as I was attempting to lead my family pursuant to solid biblical doctrine, my wife, unbiblical mind you, assumed full leadership when she refused to leave her Church™  as I directed her to so we may as a family attend another Church™  that did not teach in such an unbiblical manner.  I guess since my STBX’s Church™ was started and headed by a female pastor, my wife was never around any truly Godly women who could have taught her true biblical submission, but immoral woman who encouraged her rebellious and evil actions.  Everything my wife believes in her faith contradicts what the bible actually states very clearly.  It is no wonder why she dismissed my biblical teachings I was sharing with her, she never believed the bible was inspired by God in the first place.

My STBX wife had always had a problem with porn.   For many years I did not understand why.  She is feminist after all, but I was never able to understand her aversion to porn and only recently began to understand her core issues.  Most of her issues were her insecurities about herself.   That became apparent when she would complain about porn.  Another issue which was prompted by her beliefs compelled her to see porn as objectifying women in general.  The last reason was her beep seated desire to control everything about me and my sexuality.  When taken together, a perfect storm was brewing in her mind.

I would be remiss if I did not mention my own issues with porn.  I used it as a release when I couldn’t be bothered with picking up woman in the past.  In combat it was also used as an escape of sorts.  When I first returned home from overseas I didn’t need it so much.  When my wife and I were dating she was reasonably enthusiastic about sex.  She was by far the best lover I had, but I was figuring that with what I saw she would improve as she became more comfortable with her own body.  After we married, I was proven to have been wrong.  Although sex with her was reasonably good, there was a definite lack of enthusiasm from her and she was unwilling to be adventurous about sex.  The comfort I was expecting for her to find never materialized.  Instead she seemed to become more sexually repressed.  Even to the point of refusing to wear bikini’s and opted for one piece bathing suits when we were living in Hawaii.  Come on, women are essentially naked on the beaches there, as they should be.  Anyways, porn became a bad habit for me, one that I needed to break, but I needed my wife’s help by her being more sexually available to me and actually enthusiastic about sex, which she very rarely was.  I personally don’t have a moral issue with porn, but for me and my sometimes obsessive personality, it was important for me to greatly limit my porn use, or even eliminate it entirely.  However for me to do that would have required daily doses of getting in my wife’s panties, which she was very opposed to.  Porn does have its uses, but as with my marriage, it was a symptom of bigger issues in the relationship.  I just never realized it at the time because of all the white noise coming from the Church™ and anti porn people and of course, my own wife.

In general, excessive porn use is bad.  I found when used daily, it does dull ones sense of desire for their mate.  This makes sense on many levels.  Men who masturbate frequently smell satisfied on a primal and pheromonal level.  This can have all sorts of negative effects, such as reducing your wife’s attraction to you on this same pheromonal level.  As with all vices, if abused, it will cause problems just like alcohol, drugs, gambling, etc. However, I believe the excessive masturbation is more harmful than the porn used to facilitate the arousal for masturbation.  Of course I would be negligent if I did not state with certainty that if a husband needs porn and masturbation regularly, there are far deeper issues in the marriage than the porn or masturbation.  These issues need to be addressed first, before a man would be able or even willing to cease looking at porn and masturbating.  If the issues were positively dealt with his necessity for porn would likely be eliminated because he would be chasing his wife around trying to get in her panties, not watching some fake chick on his computer screen.  I have yet to meet a man who prefers pictures and videos to a real warm and wet woman who he is in love with, especially if she is still the wife of his youth.

I need to address adultery.  A man who looks at porn is not adultery.  You cannot twist scriptures to even make it sound close.  Any contextual and correct reading of scripture will support this.  Equating porn use, which could be a form of lust like looking at a nice rack on another woman, to adultery is only being used to justify Christian woman divorcing their husbands.  Secondly, as I alluded to I am not yet legally divorced.  There are several reasons why I have not filed yet, which I will write about in the future.  I have no idea why she hasn’t filed yet to be honest, but nothing she has done in the last 24 months makes sense to me anyways.  Also my STBX have never spoken about anything unless we are arguing over parenting time, read- telling me I can’t see my daughters, or she is demanding money from me and me laughing at her afterwards.  She and I never had any conversation that would indicate she wanted to stay married.  In fact she wanted me to do all the work to prepare for the divorce s she would not have to pay as much to an attorney.  The entitlement continues, even in the death of the marriage.

The day she walked out I was abandoned and we were spiritually divorced.  It was when she left, I was not only tempted to have sex, I physically needed to have sex with real women, and lots of them.  Having sex out of wedlock may be fornication, but with all the basterdization of Christianity and the fucked up Church™, the immoral family court system and our fucked up society in general encouraging women to be sluts I will never marry again, but I will have sex.  I just hope to keep my sexual relations in a loving monogamous relationship.  I don’t think God will bust my balls too much for that.  Either way I am no longer constrained by any of my previous beliefs or limitations which have been shown and proven to be fem-centric and serving only to women.  I still love my STBX wife, I can’t help it and I actually liked being married to her most of the time, but I am a realist and I know now our marriage was doomed from the start and is now dead.

Stay tuned for a future article analyzing how my STBX’s wife’s Church™  was pivotal in the failure of my marriage and how Christianity and the Church™ in general is bad for men, families, women and our society in general.

By: MonkeyWerks

First off I would be remiss if I did not give you some tools to save your marriage.  If that’s not possible or you choose not to continue to THE LIST

What to do when divorcing your wife

This is a good checklist of what men should consider doing when divorce is in the air.  Many of the items listed here should be done even if you and your wife are happily married because at some point she may not be haaaappppy any longer.  I did some of these things during my marriage and it worked out well in these instances.  The things I did not do caused me problems.  Ignore at your own peril.

THE LIST

WHY ARE YOU HERE?? This is not a silly question. You are about to learn a whole new meaning of the term, “rebuttable presumption,” and why it applies exclusively to you in Family Court.

Trust me; you’re in for the fight of your life. If you’re not prepared, you can bet the other side will rebut you right out of fatherhood and into poverty. Your children, with your current and future finances, will be out of your life forevermore.

Your goal therefore, demands a strong offense. This requires dedication, support, “pro-active” planning, and lots of research. In other words, PREPARATION IS EVERYTHING!!

The following list is neither conclusive nor is it exhaustive. For that matter, not all of it will apply to you. Nevertheless, its intent is to get you to think, ask hard questions, and above all, to be prepared. Copy it. Print it. NEVER let your STBX see it.

What ever you do, NEVER LEAVE YOUR MARITAL RESIDENCE unless ordered by the court!! If you do, your STBX is free to do unto you as you are about to do unto her. It’ll be a mistake that’ll cost you dearly.

If you’re not THOROUGHLY prepared, the other side will find your weakness and work you over. Their primary purpose is to “soften you up” and get you to give up custody WILLINGLY!! “THEY HAVE METHODS!!” They’ll even recruit your attorney and get you to sign documents you’ll
later regret. If you’re not prepared, and if you fail to choose your attorney wisely, there’ll be nothing left of you when they’re done.

If your STBX files first, she’s already plotted her next 10 moves against you. This is not where you want to be. If she files first, you can expect:

1) a restraining order that evicts you from your house and prevents you from contacting your kids.

2) to pay temporary child support, temporary alimony, community debt, and/or bills accumulated by your STBX during these proceedings. This can be 1 to 3 years. You’ll be bankrupt well before trial.

3) to pay court costs and other fees, in addition to expenses mentioned above: GAL; Custody/Child Evaluator; Psychological evaluation; Your STBX’s attorney fees.

EXPECT HER TO LIE. EXPECT THEM TO BELIEVE HER. EXPECT NO FAIRNESS. EXPECT TO NEED MOUNTAINS OF EVIDENCE TO PROVE YOUR CASE.

Their goal is to “bleed you dry” and beat you into submission. You’ll never see the last of their dirty tricks. It behooves you therefore to be very prepared very early.

NEVER BE IN A POSITION WHERE YOU HAVE TO PLAY “CATCH-UP.”

If you’ve got “skeletons” in your closet, prepare accordingly, ahead of time. Do likewise with your STBX’s skeletons. Gather all incriminating info while you can. Never give her the opportunity to cover her tracks.

For starters, develop an EARLY GAME PLAN to win custody. Execute your play according to YOUR timetable. Pick your shots. Make them count. Timing is everything. Keep the other side off balance. This is very important.

Lay out a trap-line for your STBX. Perpetually work on setting her up for the fall. You know her weakness. Bait her!! Give her every opportunity to make a mistake. Spring your trap in front of the camera and in front of witnesses. Document everything.

Everything must be documented in a WELL-WORDED journal. What you write must be factual and correct. At trial, your journal will be a valuable source of events, dates, and patterns of behavior. Your journal should also contain surprises to keep the other side off balance. Most
importantly, your journal will discredit fabricated testimony and lies you can expect from the other side.

Along with your journal, gather supporting evidence with photos and videos. Put a trace program on the computer and a recorder on the phone. Don’t be afraid to record phone calls. Make it your business to know where your STBX goes in cyber-space. Above all get witnesses, especially professionals involved with your STBX & kids. You may want to hire a PI. A visit to your local spy shop will be very worthwhile. Think of it as an investment.

Your journal, together with supporting evidence, will help you. More correctly, they will help your attorney. Remember, your attorney is only as effective as the information you give him. If he gets little from you, you can expect little in return.

Type and/or otherwise arrange journal notes well in advance of trial. Reserve plenty of time to review your journal with your attorney. You must bond with your attorney, and he must bond with you. Both of you must be “reading from the same page” between now and trial. Be sure save your original journal draft. You may need it.

YOUR JOURNAL IS THE TEMPLATE OF YOUR CASE!! Guard it carefully. It contains secrets the other side would love to have. Above all, BEWARE of so-called “neutral third parties,” like the GAL or Custody Evaluator. These thugs are anything but neutral. They will specifically target their report and/or testimony to discredit everything you’ve written. To guard against subpoena, address each page to your attorney. Remember, the primary purpose of your journal is to rebut and/or otherwise discredit the lies and fabricated testimony that’ll come from the other side. THIS IS OF THE UTMOST IMPORTANCE!!

Never sign anything the custody evaluator asks you to sign – even if it’s a scrap of paper that states you agree to XYZ conditions. This is a trap. Anything you sign becomes a bona-fide legal document that will be used against you in court.

PLOTTING DATA (patterns of behavior) from your journal:

It’s very important to have supporting evidence to back up your documentation. Photos and witnesses are ideal. However, you can’t always count on people, nor can you count on having a camera when you need one. Therefore, you must build your case with what you have. YOUR JOURNAL!!

If done properly and consistently, your journal becomes the heart and soul of your case. It is filled with important data. This data shows your STBX’s pattern of behavior over time. In other words, you can scientifically predict how your STBX will behave based upon the data you’ve collected. Remember, when plotting scientific data of any nature, you can expect surprises. Remember, surprises are what keeps the other side off balance.

Data from your journal can be plotted on a graph, a pie chart, or bar chart. For comparison, it’s a good idea to use all of the above. You’ll need Excel software.

Plotted data are much easier to interpret, both for the judge and your attorney. Plotted data show large blocks of evidence at a glance; ie, parenting history/behavior. This helps rebut the built-in bias of the system, and scientifically supports your bid for custody.

Keep in mind, a single “judgment error” will NEVER get the judge’s attention. However, a “PATTERN” of well-documented judgment errors, supported by evidence, will make a difference.

Remember, neither the judge nor your attorney want to sift through endless streams of relatively “meaningless” journal data. Consider your audience. It’s up to you to make things as easy as possible for them both.

SET YOURSELF UP TO WIN!! Pay attention to detail. Follow through on leads. Don’t get side-tracked!! Use only what works for you.

BECOME A “CHILD ADVOCATE.”

1) Get involved with a network of parent educators.

2) Make time for play dates and/or parties. Invite parent-chaperones who will observe you as a Superdad in fine form. Make sure mothers are invited. Ideally, they should be solidly married, above reproach, and will not be disparaged for having an affair with you.

These are great sources for collateral witnesses.

2) Enroll yourself and/or your kids in classes/counseling/treatment as necessary: Parenting classes; Co-parenting classes; Anger management; Counseling for kids caught-in-the-middle; enroll in a Children’s First program; Alcohol/drug treatment. Read contemporary books and literature
on the above subject matter. Take the initiative. Become informed. Do whatever it takes. Don’t wait ’til it’s too late.

3) The most important witnesses are court-appointed professionals, so-called “neutral third parties.” They include; the home study evaluator, the forensic evaluator, the custody evaluator, the psychologist, the play therapist, and the GAL. Tread lightly with these people. They are
anything but neutral. These thugs are “GOD” in determining custody decisions. Keep in mind, the judge is gonna rule whatever they recommend. They live by one fundamental principle, “Dads be damned.”

Whatever you do, NEVER agree to any form of binding mediation. You’ll be giving up all your rights to further litigation. You’d just as well sell your soul to the Devil.

From the beginning, you must “attempt” get these witnesses on your side. They are the “tie-breaker.” Truth be known, it’s their job to insure the race isn’t even close, much less a “tie.” Nevertheless, do your best. Be sure to document everything.

a) It’s their job to not like you.
b) It’s their job to fabricate lies about you.
c) It’s their job to soften you up and trick you into giving up custody before trial.

Remember “rebuttable presumption?” Some state’s statutes declare both fathers and mothers have an equal right to parent their children. In this phase, that right is summarily taken from you. In other words, the game is rigged. It should come as no surprise, gender discrimination is rife within the Judicial Branch of Government.

With that in mind, you might consider hiring a private custody evaluator. The idea is to bring conflicting opinion/testimony with you to court. This is one sure way to minimize a GAL’s highly biased testimony/report.

Additionally, make sure to get documentation/history of any violence, both physical and/or verbal/psychological. Is your STBX any threat to herself, to you, to your kids, or to anyone else? Evidence of this nature is critical to rebut an already biased GAL report/testimony.

I’ve heard of ONE (1) favorable recommend from a GAL. This dad was a school teacher. He was thoroughly professional and very well connected. Additionally he graduated with “honors” from parenting classes and had become a state-certified foster parent. In other words, he had credentials the rest of us don’t have or can’t get. The GAL liked this dad because he was “one of them.”

In family court, the average “Joe Six-Pack” has a 90% chance of losing. That’s why your journal and witness list are of the utmost importance.

Here’s another example. Risky? Hell yes! But the results are what counts.

Both Parties agreed, together with the judge, to allow the final custody decision to be handled by a custody evaluator. Dad’s attorney was familiar with this evaluator and requested that she hear testimony. STBX’s attorney also agreed with the request.

The evaluator met with both attorneys prior to taking testimony. She strongly advised that the Parties settle ahead of time. (Note: This is why you never agree to binding mediation.)

At this critical moment, Dad’s attorney revealed the existence of a detailed journal together with a substantial body of evidence. He suggested the Parties walk away with dignity and share custody between them. As a result, Dad’s STBX agreed to share both physical and legal custody without the evaluator deciding for them.

Dad’s guess is that his attorney had spooked his STBX in prior courtroom encounters. She gave up without a fight, certainly not because she wanted to. Of that, Dad is sure.

The lesson here is that Dad’s attorney had taken the initiative to thoroughly study the journal well in advance. As a result, Dad’s attorney was convinced that the journal would tip the balance in an occasion such as this.

Thus: a detailed journal + a good attorney + strategy = Victory

There was another dad that “bought” his STBX out. He got the house, the kids, and everything for $70K. Still another dad got out of paying alimony for a mere $11K. I realize this sounds like a lot all at once. But over time, it’s a bargain. Remember, let your attorney handle the negotiating process.

MOVING ON: Your WITNESS LIST must be exhaustive. Other than court-appointed professionals, people that see you with your children and/or otherwise know you personally are going to be your best witnesses. Remember, not everyone will support you, nor will they be available when you need them.

Potential witnesses include: Extended family; neighbors; day care, school professionals; parent volunteers; medical professionals; adult activity leaders.

“Cardinal Rule” No 1……. KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!! LOOSE LIPS SINK SHIPS!!

This is war. You must approach this as a top-secret military operation.

1) Thou shalt not raise any suspicions. DO NOT TELEGRAPH YOUR INTENTIONS.
a) Thou shalt not tell anyone what you’re up to, ESPECIALLY YOUR STBX.
b) Thou shalt not share information with anyone about anything.
c) Thou shalt take care of business like nothing’s going on.

2) Thou shalt not get side-tracked. This is “crunch time.” Manage your time wisely.

3) Thou shalt maintain thy Poker Face. Get prepared for the long hall.

“Cardinal Rule” No 2……. NEVER LET YOUR GUARD DOWN!! WATCH YOUR BACK!!

Have minimal contact with your STBX. NEVER be in a position where she can allege domestic violence of any kind. It’s best not to be alone with her. Always have a witness with you.

1) Be very careful when you are alone with your STBX.
a) She can file false domestic violence charges “at will,” and have you thrown in jail.
b) She can get a restraining order “at will,” and have you kicked out of your house.

2) “Thou shalt ALWAYS bite the bullet.” At the same, “Thou shalt ALWAYS be bulding thy case.”
a) Thou shalt not argue. Thou shalt not fight. Thou shalt not provoke thy STBX.
b) Thou shalt go the extra mile to be civil. Thou shalt be Mr Nice Guy.

3) Never engage in any form of business with your ex, no matter how much the deal “appears” to be in your favor. It will be a trap you’ll regret ’til your dying day. Remember, there ain’t no free lunch. You can always expect a pay-back down the road.

“Cardinal Rule” No 3……. BE THE BEST DAD YOU CAN BE!! DO WHATEVER IT TAKES!!

1) Get involved with your kids as much as possible.
a) Assume the role of primary caretaker well in advance.
b) This’ll set you up for primary, if not 50/50 shared primary custody. This is your goal. Never lose sight of that!!

2) Make everything you do in the best interest of your kids. Always go the extra mile.

Give your STBX a day off every week. “That’s OK, Honey. I’ll take care of this. Why don’t you go shopping?” Take advantage to document parenting time, and snoop around when she’s not home.

The following sites offer charts to document parenting time and other relevant issues. Use them to help plan what you need to do.

http://www.deltabravo.net/custody/index.html
http://www.parentingtime.net/
http://www.ChildCustodyCoach.com

“Cardinal Rule” No 4……. GET CONNECTED!! STAY INFORMED!!

1) Familiarize yourself with Family Laws, Administrative Rules, and court procedures.
a) You must understand the court process and how the family law system works.
b) It is your responsibility to know anything and everything that applies to you.
c) Mastery of your state’s Family Code will confer advantage to you in the courtroom.

As a father, you have rights. However, the goal of the judicial junta is to deny, and/or otherwise undermine those rights; ie, “rebuttable presumption.” You’ve gotta be prepared.

2) Read books on winning custody. Read only those that work for you.

3) Get connected with a dads support group. This helps you stay focused. It’s the most important thing you can do.
a) With networking, your proactive effort becomes leveraged exponentially.
b) Whether you gather or share, information is the prerequisite to constructive action.
c) Hang out with winners. When things heat up, you’ll need their support.
d) AVOID losers and “nay-sayers.” They’ll drag you down.

4) BEWARE of your limitations. Find out what works for you and what doesn’t.

You’ll never survive if you do this alone. As discussed above, court-appointed professionals are not what they seem. They are wolves in sheep’s clothing. They have no conscience.

“Cardinal Rule” No 5……. HIRE THE BEST FATHER FRIENDLY ATTORNEY YOU CAN FIND.

BEWARE OF WOLVES IN SHEEP’S CLOTHING. BEWARE of attorneys who “claim” to know everything. They talk the talk, but don’t walk the walk. Remember, you want results, not a compromise. Take your time. Shop around. Ask hard questions. Make your choice carefully.

Your attorney’s specialty should be representing fathers in family court. HE MUST KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. He shouldn’t expect a large retainer. He should tell you his win/loss record as well as your chances of winning. He should tell you his billing policy. He should be well-connected. He should know judges and court-appointed professionals; GAL’s, custody evaluators, psychologists, etc.

It’s no secret. Attorneys are 99% of the problem. So……

1) Be prepared, well in advance, BEFORE you choose an attorney. Know what to expect.
a) Above all, watch for “RED FLAGS.”

2) Your attorney works for you. You must know ahead of time what you want and stick to it.
a) Never allow your attorney to dissuade you from your ultimate goal.
b) Never display “eager-to-deal.”
c) Never allow your attorney to drag the process out unnecessarily. For starters, get a trial date set ASAP. Don’t haggle over “little things.” Stay focused. Keep the pressure on.

Be prepared to tell your attorney everything, especially the truth. Be prepared to follow his advice.

3) NEVER “assume” that your attorney will know everything.
a) Most of your knowledge will come from your support network; i.e., experienced fathers who have tenacity and know the ropes.

4) Never expect your attorney to do “everything.”
a) Manage your case actively and personally.

5) If your attorney advises you to take the “high road,” find another one ASAP.
a) THIS IS WAR!! If you’re gonna lose, go down fighting dirty.

6) Find a paralegal who’s father friendly, one who’s experienced with family law.
a) As you know, some nurses know more than doctors. The same hold true for paralegals and attorneys.
b) Find one you can count on. This is an important Plan B resource.

7) Speaking of Plan B, ALWAYS have a back-up for everything. You never know when you’ll need it.
a) If you have doubts, NEVER think twice about getting a second opinion.
b) For that matter, never think twice about getting a different attorney.

8) As things progress, assess your chances of winning; best case versus worst case scenario. BE REALISTIC!!
a) If you have a “reasonable” chance of winning, then go for it, and go early.
b) If you have “serious” doubts about winning, then settle early. Cut the best deal you can.

9) NEVER expect fairness from your STBX, much less fairness from the Family Court system.
a) Realistically, your chances of winning are 3 in 100.
b) If your ex is a junkie, a < edited >, a 3-time convicted felon, or any combination of the above, she’ll win custody 97% of the time. These numbers are realistic.

This gives you some idea of what you’re up against. Remember, you are at the mercy of Family Court thugs. The system is designed to degrade you and to bankrupt you. They’ll force you spend your money any way they can. Like the “dog” that you are, they have tactics that bring
you to “heel.” THEY DON’T LIKE YOU!!

“Cardinal Rule” No 6……. NEVER GIVE, OR SIGN ANYTHING TO YOUR STBX IN ADVANCE

You know your STBX better than anyone. You know what’s important to her. You also know her weakness. Between now and trial, you will find that your STBX is “her own favorite charity.” Her greed will soon become evident. Learn to exploit that to your advantage. For now, find out
what she wants.

At this stage, your STBX’s “wants” are potential bargaining chips that can be exchanged later for things of importance to you, like property division/alimony.

Above all, never give her your children. They are not bargaining chips!! They are non-negotiable!! This is not open for discussion!! Stick to your guns!!

1) NEVER give, nor agree to give, anything to your STBX unless:
a) the judge orders it.
b) you get something of significance in return.
c) you get it in writing.
d) you get it from your attorney.

Remember at this stage, ANY conversation, agreement, or discussion MUST go through your attorney. No matter how much you hurt, never let your STBX back into your comfort zone.

2) Keep a list of everything you give to your STBX. Use items on that list as bargaining chips later on.

During the course of your marriage, giving freely to your wife was second nature. You never thought twice about it. Today however, she is something other than your “wife.” Nevertheless, she still expects this “arrangement” of giving to continue. Worse yet, court professionals think this way too. You’ve gotta be careful.

For example, if you give her “this” today, tomorrow she’ll ask for “that.” She’ll nickel and dime you for every “little thing,” one piece at a time. It’ll never end. Before you know it, she’ll have all your “bargaining chips” and you’ll have nothing. BEWARE of this trap. You need to terminate this practice immediately. There’s a time for property division. That time isn’t
now. NEVER GIVE YOUR STBX ANYTHING!! Stick to your guns.

Remember, bargaining chips are very important. Individually, they may seem insignificant. Collectively however, and when “cashed in” at the right time, they WILL make a difference. If a bargaining chip has value for her, then it CERTAINLY has “value” for you. Never forget that.

Nevertheless, “IF” you must give her anything, make her sign a receipt for it. Think if it as an “advance” in property settlement. Be sure to list the item’s “replacement cost.” That receipt is now a bona-fide “document.” Use it later as a bargaining chip when you divide community property. When the time is right, you can make her pay dearly for all those “little
things” she took in advance.

“Cardinal Rule” No 7……. YOU FILE FIRST!! This is of the utmost importance.

For starters, you are forever the plaintiff and she’s the defendant. That’s a good thing. You get the opening shot. You design the playing field. You’ve got the momentum.

1) The secret is:
a) do not relent.
b) Maintain the upper hand.
c) Set the rules of the game.

Remember, there’s no guarantee that you’ll prevail on every issue. But it’s much better than starting the game on her terms.

2) A good lawyer is essential.

3) It’s extremely important to you know want and that you are in a position to direct the outcome.

HOWEVER, file ONLY when you’ve got a solid game plan, and ONLY when you’re ready. In other words, you pick the fight, when and where, on your terms. You want “home court advantage.”

Surprise is everything. If you catch her off-guard, your STBX will be playing “catch-up” ’til trial, and beyond. THAT’S THE WHOLE IDEA!! If you’re thoroughly prepared, and follow-through on details, she’ll never catch up.

Remember, if you get temporary custody at this stage, and if you’ve done your homework, and if everything goes according to plan, your chances for permanent custody are virtually assured. All this of course, depends on your attorney, your journal, the thoroughness of your strategy/game plan, and your commitment to active case management. Meanwhile…..

Get complete information on your STBX and children: Full names, aliases, maiden and nick names, other names used; dates and places of birth/death; Social Security numbers; Driver’s License numbers; etc.

Get every document you can think of. Leave no stone unturned. Some documents will be difficult, if not impossible to get. If/when you get stuck, move on. Do your research well in advance, BEFORE you separate. If you are thorough, you’ll reap huge dividends at trial.

Store ALL documents in a safe deposit box in your name only. These include:

1) Tax returns for the last several years.
2) Marriage license; pre-nuptial agreement.
3) Documents from your STBX’s previous marriage/divorce.
4) Birth/death certificates.
5) Passports, green cards, immigration documents.
6) DMV record(s); criminal history.
7) Thorough background check on your STBX. Hire a PI if necessary.
School records; college/high school diploma(s); transcript(s).
9) Medical and life insurance policies; will(s).
10) Deeds; titles; leases; contracts.
11) Bank statements; stocks, bonds and securities.
12) Retirement, pension, IRA, 401K, Keogh.
13) Credit report.
14) Family photos; heirlooms.
15) STASH YOUR CASH!!

Make sure you have passwords/access codes to ALL computers, bank accounts, credit cards, etc. Try them out. Make sure they work. Reset computer passwords with new software.

Get the following for your children:

1) Recent photos of your children, in clothes they typically wear.
2) Documentation of their physical descriptions.
3) Social Security, Student Body, and State ID cards.
4) Medical history, related info, and documents.
5) Immunization records.
6) Health history and/or special needs.
7) History of behavioral issues.
History of prescription medication.

CONTACT INFO for STBX and children: friends; extended family; service providers, doctors; school, counselors, day care; etc. If your STBX runs off with your kids, you’ll need to track them down.

STBX’s previous marriage and children:

1) Is she getting alimony and/or child support? How much? Paid by who?
a) Can she get alimony re-instated from her previous ex?

2) What was the value of her property settlement? What did she bring into your marriage?

3) Were any of her past debts serviced during the course of your marriage?

Remember, issues like these can, and do make a difference in property settlement. More importantly, this info might show “bad faith” or “intent.” In other words, is your STBX is using marriage as a means of embezzlement or early retirement? Are you her next target?

STBX’s school & job info:

1) Level of education/continuing education.

2) Current level and duration of employment/unemployment/underemployment/non-employment status.
a) Salary history and benefits package.
b) Career path.
c) Job skills.
d) Anticipated raises and/or promotions.
e) Anticipated career/job change.

3) Document willingness, or lack thereof, to become employed, better employed, or otherwise permanently self-sustaining.
a) You want to minimize potential alimony and child support as much as possible.

INVENTORY:

Take inventory of everything you own. List the difference between “cash value” and “replacement cost.” There is a difference!! Back-up your written inventory with videos, pictures, and appraisals. Store everything in a safe place.

COMMUNITY ASSETS: Are they greater than you think? Where did it all go?

Before, or during your marriage, did your STBX set up any form of “asset protection” where she is named beneficiary? Remember, assets could be in her name or under an alias. Perhaps a friend, a relative, a bank, or an attorney has assets “buried” for your STBX under an alias, or within a corporation? These are all good places to hide marital assets:

1) Real estate.
2) Stocks, bonds.
3) LLC’s, corporations, trusts.
4) Businesses; ventures. partnerships.
5) Off-shore holdings; bank accounts; investments.

WASTING MONEY:

During the course of your marriage, did your STBX, or did your STBX force/insist that you:

1) Give/piss away monies, assets, or property of any kind?
2) Did she waste money on herself? eg: college, clothes, jewelry, or cosmetic surgery?
3) Did she spend money on an outside relationship?
4) Did she waste money on a home business?
5) Did she forge your signature on any checks or documents?
6) Did she waste money on failed drug/alcohol treatment?

Remember, issues like these make a difference in property settlement.

ASSETS:

Make a thorough list of assets, equity, debt, monthly income, and expenses. List everything, including names that appear on each document. Don’t forget student loans and day care. Your list must include: current values; dates of acquisition and purchase price; payment and income history (paid by/earned by who?). Your list must be exhaustive!!

Note: Any debt acquired during your marriage is a community debt. A student loan however, is more complicated. In essence, you are taking an “asset” with you and leaving a debt behind. If you anticipate paying child support and/or alimony, you could argue the increased income is a
direct result of this asset. It is therefore simultaneously captured thru the debt, i.e.; your greater income potential would not be possible without the accompanying debt. Obviously, the other side will argue for higher support and leave you with your mountain of student loan debt
at the same time. In other words, they want it both ways. Chances are, the judge will agree.

Real estate: Purchase price; equity; down payment; mortgage balance; monthly payment; maintenance; improvements; etc. Get your house appraised. Apply for refinancing. The numbers won’t be equal. Such differences can be significant in property settlement.

Also include: Vehicles; boats; RV’s; condo time shares; business/partnership interests/equity; credit cards; stocks & bonds; bank and investment accounts; jewelry and other items of value; etc.

Don’t forget: Debts; gifts; inheritance; any type of “windfall;” lottery winnings; etc.

Meanwhile, STAY FOCUSED FROM THE BEGINNING.

1) DIG IN AND FIGHT DIRTY. THIS IS WAR!! THERE ARE NO RULES!!
a) If you take the “high road,” you will lose.
b) If you compromise, you will lose.

2) Once you file, keep the heat on. NEVER let up on your STBX.
a) It’s up to you to maintain momentum and keep pressure on your STBX “CONTINUALLY.” Your attorney can’t possibly do this for you. This is your fight and yours alone.

3) Filing first sets the tone for the entire process.
a) The chances of winning or losing depends “SIGNIFICANTLY” upon who files first.
b) Filing first gives you distinct advantage. You control the high ground.
c) NEVER compromise your position nor your advantage.

4) As D-Day approaches:
a) Entice your STBX to voluntarily leave, WITHOUT THE KIDS. Bribe her if necessary.
b) While she’s gone, clean out the house, take the kids, and file your court documents.

5) The moment D-Day arrives, you become “THE TERMINATOR.”
a) You instantly change from Dr Jeckyl to Mr Hyde. No more Mr Nice Guy.
b) NEVER show mercy. Take no prisoners.
c) This is war!! NEVER LOOK BACK!!

6) File your family court documents with the court clerk. Be sure the clerk date-stamps your documents. Then:

7) Go immediately to ex parte.
a) Get a temporary restraining order against your STBX.
b) Get temporary orders for “exclusive occupancy” of your house. That means your STBX gets evicted from your marital residence.
c) Get orders granting you temporary sole custody of your kids. Say she is unfit and a risk to the kids due to ___________ (you think of something).
d) Get temporary orders for supervised < parenting time >.
e) Get orders for temporary child support and temporary alimony.

8) Give copies of your restraining order to the school, daycare, your employer, etc.
a) Notify anyone involved with your kids that you have a restraining order against your STBX.

9) Change all locks and alarm codes on your house and car.
a) Change passwords on everything, especially on bank and credit/debit cards. Deny your STBX access to any form of money.

10) Get a vicious dog that barks at your STBX.
a) That’ll keep her from snooping around when you’re not home.
b) Reward him to reinforce that behavior.

11) Get a new, unpublished phone number. Route all mail to a new PO Box.

12) Have your STBX’s mail stopped.
a) Return her unopened mail to sender.

13) Remove your STBX’s name from your health, life, vision, and life insurance policies.

14) Remove your STBX’s name as beneficiary from your retirement accounts.
a) Remove your STBX’s name as beneficiary from your will.

15) Inform companies with whom you do business that you want new passwords on your accounts; insurance, bank, etc. Instruct them that passwords must be used before releasing information or changing anything.

16) REMOVE ALL cash from joint accounts.
a) Close all joint credit card accounts.
b) If any accounts are in your name, but where she is authorized, cancel her.

17) Remove your name from the title and insurance for any car your STBX drives.
a) Remove her name from the title and insurance for any car you drive.
b) NEVER ALLOW your STBX to drive any car that is in your name.
c) NEVER be responsible for your STBX’s driving behavior. From now on, she’s a liability.

1 NEVER OFFER your STBX her clothes and/or personal necessities. Wait ’til she asks.
a) Make her sign a receipt for anything she takes. NO EXCEPTIONS!!
b) Store her personal belongings in boxes. Set them on the sidewalk where she can pick them up and leave immediately. More importantly, she’ll have no reason to roam through your house.

c) Release her belongings ONLY if she signs a receipt, and ONLY if she has a police escort.

19) File charges and PROSECUTE your STBX for any domestic violence. DO NOT DROP any charges.

20) Inform your employer that you want your calls screened.
a) If your STBX calls, call the police and file a restraining order violation. DON’T EVEN THINK TWICE!!
b) Use your employer’s receptionist is a witness.

Do all of the above. Leave no stone unturned. These measures set the tone ’til trial. Cut off your STBX’s money and resources early in the game. Do anything and everything that hinders her bid for custody. THIS IS WAR!! NEVER LOOK BACK!!

MEANWHILE: Focus on the basics. Fine-tune your game plan. Work on strategy. Keep it simple.

Don’t forget, ALWAYS HAVE A CONTINGENCY PLAN for everything (Plan B)

Get your financial house in order. Clean out/close out everything, especially joint accounts. Take “convenience” out of purchasing. This includes credit cards, on-line purchasing, and other “lines-of-credit” you’ve established over time. This vicious cycle must be broken.

Except for essentials, don’t buy anything. If you must buy, pay with cash. Pay all bills the old-fashioned way. Write a check and drop it in the mail. Keep a record of bills that get paid.

“IN YOUR NAME ONLY” – Route all mail to a new PO Box. Get a new cell phone. Keep it secure. Use it for “IMPORTANT” business only. Open savings and checking accounts at a different bank. Get a new safe deposit box to store cash, valuables, and documents. Open new Visa & Mastercard accounts. Use them only for “EMERGENCIES.” Get a line of credit as large as you can. Rent a storage locker to stash large items of value. Remember your inventory? Manage it closely. Get new passwords for everything, including credit cards, PC, & ATM.

STASH YOUR CASH in your new safe deposit box. Another option is to open a “secured” Visa/MasterCard account. The bank takes $XXXX.00 from one account deposits it in an interest-drawing “trust.” Meanwhile, use the credit card as usual up to the secured dollar amount. You can deposit additional funds as they become available. This/these transaction(s)
don’t “appear” on bank or credit card statements. There’s just less cash in your account.

MOVING ON – Convert what you can to cash. Think, “D-O-W-N-S-I-Z-E.” Sell everything. Pay bills and reduce debt as much as possible. Save all receipts and bills of sale. You may need to account for everything later.

THIS MEANS: Cancel subscriptions and non-essential services. Cash in stocks and bonds. Sell the Lexus, the Suburban, the RV, and the boat. Sell your time shares for the condo, jewelery, china, and silverware. Include anything and everything you can think of. That means “boy’s
toys” too. You’re not gonna have time for them once the proceeding begins.

Before selling your house, convert your equity into cash by refinancing. You’re gonna need it. Remember, there’s no guarantee that a sale will occur any time soon. For that matter, there’s no guarantee you’ll get your asking price. Furthermore, with commissions, taxes, fix-up and
misc expenses, your equity could dwindle to something far less than you expected. It’s best to cash out while you can.

The idea is to liquidate what you can ahead of time, while you have time. You won’t have that luxury later. The time to sell is BEFORE you really have to. If you wait ’til the last minute, you’ll be selling at a deep discount.

Keep plenty of cash on hand so there’s no paper trail. You’ll need this for “emergencies.” For starters, earmark $10K for attorney fees and court expenses. Expect to need more later.

YOUR JOB:

Now is a great time to consider career options. They may be offered at work, or you may have to be creative: early retirement; continuing education; sabbatical; voluntarily lay-off/termination. Collect unemployment, severance package, restructure your career path. Do anything to minimize gross pay and maximize time spent getting prepared.

Postpone raises and promotions (if possible). Get your employer to tuck away a percentage of your salary where it can’t be touched. Think, “asset protection.” The idea is to minimize child support and alimony payments. You can return to your career path when this is over.

You may want to cash out your retirement/401K. Your STBX is gonna get half. You may as well get the other half. Your “rainy day” is here.

I know this sounds like a lot. It is. There’s a lot at stake. Remember, the war starts the moment you file. Once you file, all hell’s gonna break loose. You’ll barely have time to keep up with details that follow, much less play “catch-up” or track down any of the above.

Rule of thumb = Preparation means everything

LOCK AND LOAD!! NEVER GIVE UP!! NEVER LOOK BACK!!

A word from The List’s author

Although I consider my knowledge of family court to be extensive, I could never have compiled such a vast body of information alone.

My primary purpose in writing The List was to compile a “scattered” body of information into a single composition, something with a “voice,” something that would make “perfect sense” to a battered population of fathers in the throes of divorce. I wanted fathers caught in a hopeless situation to have hope.

Secondly, I wanted to provide “tools” whereby fathers could actively manager their case. Such information is either hidden or deliberately made unavailable to fathers who are crippled by a gender abusive system.

Third, I wanted to expose gender bias, the true terror of every family court setting. Indeed, until the evil of this judicial junta is exposed, nothing will change.

The List is nothing more than a “rough draft.” Nevertheless, The List in it’s current state is well worth sharing. I believe if The List helps even one father, my efforts will have been worth while. In reality, I have received resounding acclimation from many who visit dadsdivorce. In other words, The List is a hands-on guide that works.

Having said that, I’ll say this. If divorce is in your future, you’re about to discover how/why “rebuttable presumption” applies exclusively to you. Truth is, you’re facing a gender-biased system like no other. Unless you settle out of court, you’d just as well give your STBX everything she wants and save yourself a lot of time, trouble, and money. If you’re a contender however, it behooves you to be attentive to what follows. It’ll make a world of difference both now, and at trial.

It goes without saying, divorce is for keeps. Either you fight to the death or else lose everything. Those are the choices. Remember, once the decree is signed, each term and condition is set in stone. Regardless of what others tell you, there’s no second chance. That’s why it’s imperative to get a good start. Hopefully, that good start will result in a good finish.

The List provides hands-on strategies for winning. Without it, your chances of winning are slim to none. At the very least, you’ll come out a helluva lot better than had you not applied The List at all.

The List is based upon personal experience combined with experiences of others who’ve been thru Family Court. The information provided is based upon what works, what really works, and what’ll set you up to win. Conversely, The List also tells what doesn’t work, what really doesn’t work, and what is certain to set you up for failure.

Those of us from pre-internet days will recall an era when fathers were at the mercy of attorneys and the Family Court system. For those of us who dared, pro se became the option of necessity.

The system today however, is very well-entrenched, more so than ever. But with the advent of internet, today’s fathers can get the kind of help we couldn’t have imagined.

Granted, there are web sites that claim to offer help. Tragically however, few provide useful knowledge for fathers in trouble. If you’re looking for fluff, you won’t find it here. The information contained in The List is useable. More importantly, it’s doable.

No attorney will provide The List’s information for you. In fact, he may dissuade you from considering any of the following. Regardless, your only chance of winning is by applying The List’s principles to your situation. This is your job, and yours alone. With stakes this high, you’d be foolish to ignore The List’s content or allow anyone to perform these tasks for you.

If you’re a dad facing a contested divorce, your only priority is to fight with everything you can muster. It’s gotta be all or nothing!! Other priorities from henceforth no longer exist. BE FOREWARNED!! This is the most important war you’ll ever wage. Your opponent is formidable. Indeed, family Court is more than your worst nightmare. It’s hell on earth.

For starters, you must understand only one thing. The Family Court system is dominated, controlled, and otherwise regulated by man-eating feminists. They are part and parcel of a gender-biased branch of government that wields at-will discriminatory authority. As you will discover, they are contemporary social engineers of the highest order. Their job is to fabricate lies, put a spin on truth, and separate you from your children. Except for mother’s benefit, state statutes have zero relevance. Unless you’re thoroughly prepared, the judge will order whatever they want. This isn’t the Twilight Zone. This is Family Court!!

Having said that, I’ll say this. If you play Mr Congeniality or fail to prepare, the other side will rebut you out of fatherhood and into poverty. This is my only guarantee. Other than that, there are no guarantees.

By definition, the other side is everybody but you. Generally, this applies to your STBX. However, it also applies to the judicial junta that supports her. This junta is staffed with little Hitlers. They’re gangsters and you’re trespassing on their turf. They use a tag-team strategy like no other. Their collective goal is to encircle you and compel you to submit to their outrageous terms. Faultless parenting on your part means nothing to these thugs. Your one alternative is preparation. Indeed, is preparation is the only thing!!

If you’re not thoroughly prepared, they’ll establish psychological advantage early in the first quarter. They’ll have you dancing to their tune. They’ll have you trapped in their hall of smoke and mirrors. They’ll surprise you at every turn. They’ll maintain a full-court-press and force you to submit to less-than-favorable terms.

This is not where you want to be. If it is, your children will be out of your life forevermore. When all is said and done, your role as a father will be reduced to that of “visitor.” For all intents and purposes, your parental rights will be terminated. This is no lie. I speak from first-hand experience.

With that in mind, it is absolutely essential to build a strong case early in the game. This is no time for compromise. It must be all or nothing. This requires 100% effort: dedication; networking; (pro)active planning; (pro)active case management; endless research. Preparation is everything!! Failing to prepare is preparing to fail. I trust we are clear thus far.

Finally, The List is no mere body of suggestions. Additionally, it’s neither conclusive nor exhaustive. Instead, treat it as a manual of do’s and don’t’s. Although this sounds like an oxymoron, Family Court is an oxymoron all its own. It’s a venue where things are not as they seem. Its purpose is to deceive you at every turn. That’s why you must be prepared and stay on your toes. None of this is rocket science. However, it does take some getting used to.

The important thing is to follow The List in principle. Its purpose is to empower you with a mindset for victory. It’s a guide that’ll help you think, ask hard questions, and be prepared. Your job is to decide what works and what doesn’t. When you discover something that works, it’s imperative that you use it to your advantage. In other words, use The List as a guide to build a list of your own.

The List’s most important theme however, is that you stay on your toes, watch your back, and never give up. Moreover, never trust your STBX or anyone associated with Family Court. Your job is to perpetually anticipate other side’s next move and prepare accordingly.

At the onset, your most critical strategy is to create opportunities out of virtually nothing and leverage them into something significant, namely advantage. The idea is to compound opportunity upon opportunity. As new opportunities are generated, your advantage becomes exponentially leveraged. The trick however, is to maintain that advantage, thereby forcing your STBX to perpetually play catch-up. Ideally, she should never catch up. If she can’t catch up, she has no time to prepare for court. If she’s not prepared, your chances of winning are enhanced significantly. This is the recipe for your quest to victory. I trust we are clear thus far.

Tom Kirkpatrick
Author of The List

December 9, 2013  By: MonkeyWerks

Welcome.

This blog is a compilation of some of the letters and essays I have written and will write in the future.  I was inspired by my wife leaving me and our subsequent divorce to journal my feelings and observation as to what motivated her actions during and at the end of our marriage.  This reflection caused me to reflect on my past before my marriage and how I ended up becoming the man I was.  As my brokenness over the destruction of my family really sank in, I decided that I needed to reevaluate much if not all of my beliefs and the systems that caused me to adopt those beliefs.  In my brokenness I realized that I am not the man I wanted to become.

I will also write about what i am going through, including the sometimes painful day to day experiences and emotions.  There will be talk of my new lovers and new adventures as they occur.

Anyways, I hope to dissect these issues that man face today, such as the decline of positive masculinity, feminism, divorce, father rights, sexuality, and much more.  One thing I will be writing about is my journey from an unaware or plugged in player, to a husband and father, to a divorced man.  My journey has forced me to consider the many why’s I have had to ask myself.  My journey started with my mother’s feminist beliefs, her indoctrinating me with those beliefs, my rejection of them and my subsequent research and adoption of many of the ideals we in the manosphere call Red Pill Truths.  It is a hard journey, but as with anything worthwhile, it will be worth it, because I will end up a better, more fulfilled man who is on track to reach his full potential.

I am a fan of Dalrock, Chateau Heartiste, Rollo Tomassi and many other writers that illuminate many of these issues all men face today and I hope, like them, these essays will  also be a useful source of information and reference for other men who face these same issues.

And now our journey begins….